Hello party people, it’s been a loooong time and I feel like we finally need to catch up today.
February has been a wild ride on an emotional roller coaster for me but I am very happy to say that things are really good right now.
I am feeling more social that I have felt in years. I have reconnected and met up with almost all my friends by now. It was good to see them and catch up after way too long. I missed my friends and hated not to have the time and energy to invest in keeping a relationship. But I feel like I am back now.
And now I think it’s high time to catch up with you guys! I am also linking up with my dear girl Megan!
Let’s grab a cup of coffee, tea, water or whatever floats your boat and off we go!
I really feel like I am back in the saddle with living my life. I am cooking a lot. And I have firm plans to share a few of the things I am making. I kinda fell out of blogging in the last few months but I really want and am excited about to jump on the bandwagon again.
Next to seeing my friends I spent a lot of time with my family. We babysat on a few different occasions and had two sleepovers at our place. Once my two eldest nieces and then one niece and our nephew last weekend. Each time we made pizza and had a movie night with popcorn in our pajamas. It was fun and good to have the kids around but I would lie if I didn’t say I needed some solid recovery time after dropping them off back at home.
I have almost finished up all career counselling sessions I had booked – I have one left in early March – and I have mixed feelings about it. On the one hand, it had brought me a really good idea of what I want and need in a job. And it also had brought up and made me aware of some issues I have with myself that not only have an impact on my career but on my personal life as well. You can imagine that I have a lot to digest. But in the end, it didn’t help me much with figuring out what I want. Maybe that’s too much to expect. I am still happy that I went through the whole process. It’s up to me what I make of it now!
For the time being, I have decided to lift the pressure of coming up with a master plan off my shoulders. I mean I have tried to really think about that all for a good 5 months now and didn’t succeed. So now it’s time to try the other way around. I am not going to force it but instead just do the stuff and concentrate on the things I am excited about and want to spend my time with. Maybe that way I have a chance to figure out what my heart is set on. Cross your fingers for me – I am desperate!
But I have started to push my boundaries photography-wise and I haven’t had fun like that in ages. I have started to develop a serious interest in taking pictures of flowers. It’s a bit weird because I mean I always liked flowers but I have never been super into them. Well looks like now I am! And I am gonna roll with the punches!
Next thing I want to do is tackling people photography. I am not good with people. Other than with still life photography you have to interact and direct and I think that’s a huge learning curve for me. We will see how that goes. But I am grateful for having the time to tackle these things now.
Time is something I haven’t really had in the last two years but drumroll please.. my PhD is finished. I had my thesis defense last Monday and now I am done. I still need to publish it. But that’s just such a minor pressureless thing in my mind that at the moment I really can’t be bothered.
Stefan picked me up at the University afterwards and we celebrated a bit. It was all I wanted and needed. Also, I was a happy tipsy bouncy ball of excitement. I got really good feedback on it. One of the things that made me put a ton of pressure on myself was the uncertainty of what was expected of me. But it looks like I did a good job overall.
What I wasn’t really happy about was smiling for the camera. Even though people photography isn’t my strongest skill, I am still much worse in front of the camera!
The days leading up to my exam had been a bit bumpy though. I had pinched a nerve in my chest a few days prior and was a real mess. I was in pain with every breath and couldn’t move or lie down really. If I slept, I slept in a chair. So I took strong painkillers and sucked it up. Nothing more you can do, right? I am still a bit uncomfortable but it gets better every day.
So this week I am continuing to embrace living my life. My birthday is also coming up and I have plans to meet two of my closest friends for dinner and drinks.
Hope you guys are having a good week and let me know what you’re up! I need so inspiration of what to do with my time!