Confessions of an Unintentional Workaholic

It’s save to say that my world and especially my day to day life has been thrown upside down within the last couple of months. For a long time I have resented it. It made me feel not in control. I felt like I had to sacrifice way too much. And from an objective point of view I really do sacrifice a lot at the moment.

I sacrifice time with my friends and family. My camera gathers dust and if I do indulge in playing with it for maybe 10 minutes I feel guilty. I don’t manage to work out regularly and I don’t cook at all. Even though I would love to. And let me not even start with how much I have neglected this blog.

But on the other hand I know that in a few weeks time this will all be over and I am getting my life back. And I plan on tackling it full force. Now that I said it here publicly, it has to happen, right?

The positive thing is though that I have somehow grown a little fond of my current lifestyle as well. Not so much that I want it to last longer than necessary but definitely enough to see the funny side of  it as well. I guess there is not more I can ask for.

So today I thought I make a small step and test how life will taste on the other side of my dooming deadline and throw in a cheeky post where I confess a few of the funny things about my life as an unintentional workaholic. By the way I totally stole this whole confession idea from my buddy Meg.

Let’s get this party started…

1. Most days I roll out of bed, brew me some coffee and stay in my pajamas until… well until I shower the next time

2. My hair lacks of a decent cut and color. And right now I don’t remember when I washed it the last time. Dry shampoo has become my most relevant beauty product!

3. Sometimes I don’t leave the appartment for a few days. My personal record has been three days. And I wasn’t even sick

4. I feel like it’s okay to go without vacuuming the appartment for a good two weeks

5. I have inherited this super annoying habit where I cannot talk about anything but my thesis. It consumes not only most of my time but also almost all my brain

6. Monday before going to Italy I opened a bottle of wine. It took me until Saturday to finish it off 

7. Doing laundry is not really happening as well. It’s a good thing I exclusively live in my pajamas and sweatpant shorts these days

8. Today I had half a bag of snack pretzels for lunch. And it wasn’t the first time either

9. When I have to go into work I get a bit offended that the etiquette demands that I make myself a bit presentable at least

10. I started ordering necessities from the internet because I don’t make it to the shops anymore. Think of birthday gifts, books and even underware. After most of my underware was in that kind of a questionable condition where you pray that you’re not involved in an accident and have to go to the hospital it kinda had to happen

11. Everytime the doorbell rings I quickly check my apprearance and then open the door anyway because it’s most probably the postman bringing one of my parcels

12. I bet by now he believes I am an unemployed slacker indulging in retail therapy. Little does he know that I still have a job… at least for the next couple of weeks…

13. Most days I do a really good job focusing on my thesis but some days I am on my second nap before the clock strikes noon

14. I have made plans with three different people in the next three weeks. None of them knows that I have secretly already decided to cancel them all

15. I am not going to cancel my wine and whine date with my friend tomorrow though. We’re sitting in the same boat right now and I am looking forward to shamelessly complain without having to feel guilty for being too negative!

16. I cannot speak like a normal person anymore. Not that this has ever been one of my strenghts. But it’s reached a new high now. When I open my mouth I either produce a lot of word vomit or sound like an excerpt from a scientific article. There is no in between.

17. That might be one of the reasons why I annoy everyone right now

18. Maybe it’s also my haunted and unfocused expression I react with every time someone calles my name out loud. It happens a lot lately because I usually miss to respond the first two times being deep in thoughts about random stuff like citation or the look of my graphs.

19. I have a private pinterest board where I pin everything I want to do once this is all done. My current means of procrastination and motivation

20. Even though I am going thorough a demanding time – and I had never imagined it would take so much of me – when I think of the future I cannot help but smile!