I hope you have a good day! Mine is okay after yesterdays bad news. Right after publicizing my post yesterday my mother-in-law called me and told me that my husband’s uncle had passed away in the morning. Though he fought cancer for a few years we did not anticipate that he was so close to losing that fight! It was a shock and we are all very sad though we’re glad that he’s no longer in pain.
She didn’t want to tell my husband on the phone so I drove to his workplace. We spend the rest of the day together. We just didn’t bear to be separated and I was sure concentrating on our work was not possible. The funeral will be next Friday and I am already dreading it! Today we’re back at work and business as usual happens. Sometimes I can’t believe that life is that way. But it’s Friday and I am going to concentrate on my Friday goals again! That’s life – if we like it or not!
Every week for 12 weeks I will give you an update on my New Body Makeover Challenge on Friday. I am five weeks into my new year’s goals which centers around my half marathon training. Week one was a success and week two was a bit slow. Let’s see what happened in week 5…
New Body Makeover Challenge – Week 5
I have to admit that last week was a struggle and I wasn’t happy with it. First of all I was away with my PhD Group and missed out on setting my weekly goals. I also feel that I lost my motivation. I haven’t lost any weight in two weeks and I realize that I am still in the mind set of eating healthy = losing weight = doing good! It’s not all about weight! My head knows that but unfortunately I am used to decide according to my instincts. And I’ve confused my instincts way to much over the last years to really rely on them. Again I know this but I struggle with breaking this habit.
I wouldn’t fuss so much about my weight if I fit again into my jeans from last spring. Or would come closer to fitting into them. But I don’t. When I look in the mirror I am not happy. And I don’t feel great either.
Maybe I need to focus more on my achievements. That’s what psychology tells you all the time: Focus on the positive… Okay…So far I’ve stopped counting calories which is huge for me! I really count that as an achievement though I’ve gained some weight. And I am way better with my water intake and hydration! I have more energy (at least I persuade myself of this) and I have gained muscle mass. You may say now: Okay why’s she complaining because muscle gain = weight gain. But again: Yes I know! But I feel different about it! To me it feels like I am gaining muscle and fat at the same time.
Okay let’s evaluate the week as usual: as there were no goals set last week I can’t show you a nice goal chart! BUMMER!
Every week you have 21 meals (without snacks) to make a healthy food choice. For every healthy food choice you may color one smiley. So you have 21 smileys to color at max. My food choices were pretty healthy most of the time but as the beginning of last week officially marked the end of my alcohol free month I indulged a little too much. So I consider a healthy food choice along with alcohol not so healthy anymore and won’t color a smiley for it. I end up with 17 smileys which is still good! Though my tummy is a lot happier without alcohol and I am happily limiting my alcohol intake next week again!
Let’s evaluate the workout part…
For every day you worked out there’s also a smiley to color. I managed to work out more and could color 4 smileys for exercising. That is good and I am proud of it. I am also happy that there will be more smileys to color next week as my soccer practice starts again and I’ve already scheduled a workout for the next 5 days.
My lessons learned from week #5
- I am pretty sure I want a personalized meal plan and I am looking for options. Any recommendations?
- I still struggle with portion sizes. Can somebody tell me a good portion size for me please? Since I stopped counting calories I think I eat too little portions. But I don’t know to be honest. They could be too big or absolutely okay either!
- At the moment there is no motivation and no fun!
- Everytime I drink alcohol I feel guilty! I really want to get rid of that guilt! I am even not sure anymore if my upset tummy comes from the booze or the guilt!
- I am stopping with that self-pity and rant now and get my ass going!
I’ve already made my goals for week 6 and I really hope this week will be easier again! For making myself accountable I am sharing my goals with you here today:
Goals for week #6
- Getting motivated again! More movement = more motivation for me!
- Less alcohol but enjoying it guilt free!
- Trying new foods and getting excited again!
- Enjoying my workouts!
- Ignoring the scales!
Okay I am already more motivated and I promise I will report a positive change next week! I hope you have a good start to the weekend and a brilliant Friday!
How are you doing with your goals?
How are you handle struggles like that?